My personal opinion used to be that I have fewer friends now compared to maybe 10 or 15 years back because most have either got onboard the never-ending voyage to that land of ’till death do we part vows’ or that they are ashes to ashes and dust to dusted. Anyway, of late, I realised that I have fewer of them not so much due to morality (at least that is what I gather from looking at the orbituaries every now and then, hoping not to spot a familiar face) but rather because I am more selective of the people I hang out with more now than before. My time here is passing and each day is a blessing that is not to be wasted, being that I have set afoot earth for 30 plus years. Who knows whether I have another 30 more or less? I want people who make me feel good about myself, people who are hanging with me not with an agenda, people who like what I like, enjoy what I enjoy. In the past, when I was in school we were sort of thrown together in a bundle to live and die together (ermmm ok not that serious but close) so in the event of it, we somehow subconsciously forge that bond of anti-teachers, anti-uniform, anti-prefects, anti-school rules and the list goes on. Whether we liked each other or not, or have a common interest or not, we still hung together like peas in a pod because of the situation we had ourselves in. When we left school to the world outside, somehow that bond withered down together with the shoes we wear out in the rat race and soon it became not there anymore. Another reason could be because as we grew older and mature we developed my own identity, the thing that tells me who I am. I no longer need other people’s opinion of me to mould that identity I show the world. for that, I no longer need to force myself to stay bundled up in a place long enough to forge out that relation. I just desire for us to have a common ground to start with. Common grounds like a love for what makes us swoon and get high with adrenaline. so as time flows by, I only need that few in my life to complete me, to care for me in their little ways, to have them for me to show them I appreciate them in my little ways, to be around me because I really want them to. to illustrate my point, let’s talk about the three non blood relations in my life now. the little one makes me feel kinship towards her. she is like that little sister who is a 12 year version younger (in a way) of me in temperament and a penchant for inflicting physically onto others. page is the funny witty one and and I have a love hate relationship with how he addresses me with banter. of cos, the SHGF who completes my life in a way not done before. and how we kid and play like children sometimes. how I love the words from her. not forgetting the nice pictures she takes of me hahahhaha.. all in all, I feel comfort and ease around them. However, this is not to say that I do not like people I do not hang out with on a regular fortnightly basis. When I am around XL, I feel peace and tranquility. I reckon that is how friendship is when you age it like wine. delicious. hahahah … I like Hanson xd’s happy go lucky nature. it is infectiously good and when you are around him, he makes you feel like nothing can be better or go worst. and he has been there with me in moulding the army. oh yes and hh, well, she just is … entertaining, in her quirk unfathomable ways…
“I’ll lean on you and you lean on me and we’ll be okay.” – Dave Matthews Band
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